The aim of this project is to explore the complexity of an identity and how external factors and boundaries play a part in the adaptation of ones identity. This project aims to become a visual manifestation of the moments when one is forced to perform what the audience prefers to see. This project also aims to explore the transformation of self and the difference between the performed self and the authentic self through a series of films accompanied by sound.
Drawing from my thesis ‘Reading, Realness and RuPaul: Representation of Drag in Reality Television’, I chose a project which explores the power of transformation that drag queens employ and examined it within a personal context. After investigating how the show depicts the transformation of drag queens from their ‘male’ selves to the adapted scenario of their drag, I drew on the similarities of how individuals adapt their identity depending on their surroundings to socially acceptable norms.
This performative piece delves into the transformation of ones identity both literally and metaphorically. This series of films is a visual and sonic piece which explores how external boundaries play a part in the adaptation of one’s identity. When safe, one can be ones most authentic self, able to speak and behave in a way that comes naturally. However, when in public, or in situations when one is not feeling safe, identity is adapted to fit in with the societal norms. 
The sound plays a key role in this piece. The voiceover presents the viewer with information about transformation. This voiceover is juxtaposed against mundane transit ambient noises taken from O’Connell St and Heuston Station. These sounds represent the constant in-transit state that our identities are in. We are constantly morphing from one persona to another depending on our surroundings. The sounds of transit are intertwined with intimate sounds which represent when we are on our own, when we're truly ourselves.  The sound is designed in such manner so that the voice moves from the left screen to the right and they then merge in the middle. This is done to represent the polarity of the two personas that we are constantly morphing into, and in the end when they merge it is clear that the two polar opposite personas are in fact the same person.
Colour Scheme
Going hand in hand with the context of the voiceover, the colours further emphasise the power of transformation. As the voice over speaks how transformation can simultaneously reinforce and subvert popular gender assumptions, the pink and blue colours used further emphasise that. The use of pink and blue with the same individual behind the screen subverts the popular gender assumptions. The figure behind the blurred haze is identifiably the same on all three screens, this subverts the gender association of the two colours.
The blurriness achieved in the films is done through analogue manner. During filming I have covered the camera lens with several layers of coloured cellophane to tint and blur out the portraits. The cellophane, a material that is transparent acts as an invisible physical barrier between the person and the camera. This represents the invisible filter we put on ourselves depending on our location to blur out our identity.
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